There is a lot to say
without even making the smallest sound
I am a relationship and still can’t find myself wearing
a full heart-ed smile
our conversations are personal, never a feeling for either of us to lie
and when I am with you
and it’s time for you to leave, I want you to stay for a longer while
but I am losing track of our time
and I’m hiding inside of my own self,
seeking to only find myself being lonely inside
Maybe you are lost too
and maybe your loneliest can’t find me
but I’m standing right in the open and I am starting to think
you don’t really want to seek me
Maybe you might be more than what I need
and maybe we did this too soon
we could be crashing our own love down
and maybe I just don’t know what to do with the love that you gave me
and maybe this union was something I did to
see if you could just save me
but I can’t see myself letting you go
we understand each other and on the outside we look perfect
but there is something here that’s not right
that’t not fair
but I cant stop myself from looking into those
eyes that tell me we’re fine
but I find myself behind
and I know you are saying “I oughta know by now”
because you wanted you to be mine
but I don’t
and I want to know that your heart will be promised
and your truth will be contagious
I want to know by now that I do not have to worry
and I want to now by now that I do not have to think about anymore “maybes”
And I want to know that you and I can have the most to say over any sound
and I just don’t want to wear a smile, rather I want you to feel it when your not around
and I ought to hear you over my music
and there is a reason our different worlds clicked
we are together and I want to be able to exist with you
and I don’t want to feel alone when I have you
something is missing from us
and because you first found me,
I am determined to find it
I guess you have no choice but to lie in bed thinking about love and there is no way of
Especially when ya heart decides to contact your mind without any prior notice.
And these headphones in my ears couldn’t play music to take my mind of this.
Because all the sounds and vocals, even rap lyrics all bring up a moment in my life that pertain to you.
And these poems I write have no other choice but to be about you.
And my words loving you is all they really wanted to do.
I wish my creativity could reflect another topic or a moment in my life when everything seemed to mean something.
But that probably won’t happen because Love was something that I thought would make me happy, But since it didn’t last, my heart refuses to be left broken. So I will continue to play these soulful tracks until my heart decides it’s ready to love again and I will continue writing these poems until my words finally want to express my feelings for another man.
Play on music because your playing right into my soul, which guided my pen to write my thoughts better than they ever did before…..
Nobody in the the world but you
the overwhelming anticipation building up inside of me
Because when that day comes I cannot wait to repeat those same words to you